Monday, April 24, 2006;
we had sports day. we didnt win anything but its okay.4o4 got FOURTH for every event! cool or what?we have mid yr chem prac tmr. can u imagine? i cant.im not prepared at all. i like titrating but i dont know how to do the other part at all. the what test tubes and test for gas stuff. and titrating is scary cos even if you miss by ZEROPOINTONE cm cube u can wave your marks goodbye as they're being flushed down the toilet.and i havent even started studying at all. not for a single thing. i mean i do homework and it sort of helps but still, we have to study every single damned thing since sec3.im gonna vent my frustrations today. i have to let it out, i cannot keep it to myself anymore....now that i want to vent it all out i got nothing to say!stupid.you. sometimes i cannot stand you. i try and try my hardest and my best to at least be on okay terms with you but sometimes you make it very extremely absolutely hard to do so. small little things like not even bothering to stand up to pick up stuff even when they're like one cm away from you and all you can do is give me that stupid irritating "oh! I DROPPED SOMETHING!" expectant face. expectant in that you want me to pick it up when i repeat, it is only ONEFRIGGINGCM away and i am like a million miles away. okay that is damn exaggerated but u do get my point. its not as if you'd break a nail or anything. and its okay if sometimes you do actually pick up your own stuff but you dont. not at all.your disregard for other people's feelings is astonishing. i didn't know someone could totally not care at all. not one bit. maybe its cos you're so totally absored with yourself.
and you keep saying stuff. small little comments that dont affect you at all but i think you do not realise two things. that 1) OTHER PEOPLE actually do have feelings and that 2) the world does not revolve around YOU! all you care about is how your life is and not at all about other people. you didnt even bother to stand up (not literally) for me.
grr.
people are already on the VERGE of tears and you go say stuff to make it worse. how insensitive can you get. and you laugh and laugh. thats all you can do. and everytime i have to bite my tongue from snapping back at you for whatever insensitive remark you make about other people.
what can i say? birds of the same feathers flock together.
if you read this it doesnt matter to you cos im not worth it.
isnt that what you said.
im making this really obvious aren't i.i have half a mind to not blog this entry but for the sake of idontknowwhat i still shall.another you. i wonder why you say ppl are giving you the cold shoulder. hmm.maybe its cos you started it. and you always twist the story to make yourself look as if you're the poor little thing being abused. pssssshhhhh. poor my foot.and you are weird. when people treat you nice you treat them badly, so that people give up treating you nice and then you start to treat them nice. its a viscious cycle! it goes on and on and on and one day people will totally give up being nice to you. and you use "the hardest word" for the wrong things! sheesh.im done.so long till end of mid yrs.good luck all you people.i think we all need it.
